It’s been a while! I’ve been busy with life things (South Side Weekly Radio and other life commitments), which I guess is good. But recently I’ve been wishing I wrote more and shared what I wrote more. And read more and shared what I read more. And shared the interesting music and podcasts I’ve been listening to. And concerts. And… And…
This morning I woke up at 4 AM for no reason. I couldn’t go back to sleep, so I decided to read a book – a collection of letters written by women to their younger selves. These women were all famous and old enough to be able to look back at a particular segment of their life and write a well-aimed, directed letter to their younger self with advice on how to overcome the coming difficult period.
For whatever reason I felt induced to write a letter to myself too. I realized that it’s a week or two until the start of the school year, so I decided to write my letter to fourteen-year-old me during the summer of 2006, right before the start of freshman year of high school. Oh what a time to be alive…
You do not know ANYTHING. This is hard to hear because you are smart and get good grades and older people tell you how wise you are for your age. Be proud of this, but don’t be complacent.
You do not know ANYTHING. Don’t assume to know; strive to know. You do your best when you’re trying to learn about people, the world, and yourself. There is so much to learn, about all of these aspects of life, but “yourself” is most important. You will learn so much about yourself in the next 10 years. I think if I told you now you wouldn’t believe me.
When you feel things, believe they are real. You will spend so much time wanting some things and trying not to want other things that you will unnecessarily confuse yourself. Additionally, you will try so hard to have others like you, you won’t realize who you are when there’s no one around to conform to. Perhaps you need this to survive high school (and you do survive – thrive? – successful and well-liked). But be aware of how you feel and know that this intuition will point you in the direction of who you are and who you want to be. And that is ALWAYS the direction in which you want to be moving.
Love you ALWAYS,
I enjoyed this! You should write a letter to your younger self too! It can be sent to any time before right now. Maybe you want to write a letter to yourself from yesterday saying “Yo, don’t worry about that awkward convo you just had. Tomorrow you have a much less awkward convo.” Letters to yourself are the best because YOU are the best.
P.S. I’m so tired and I think this is all just delirium at this point. But hope you enjoyed it. Glad to be back.